Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Audrey's birth story and my health

While the story isn’t over yet, I wanted to share what was going on with me.

Thursday, January 12
I came home from work with a fever and was wheezing.

Sunday, January 15 (Hospital Day 1)
My breathing difficulty was getting worse, so my OBGYN on-call doctor told me to go to urgent care and get my lungs listened to. At urgent care, my blood pressure was out of control and we were told to go straight to the hospital.

I was checked into L&D. My blood pressure was nowhere as high, but the hospital decided to do a 24-hour urine test. As for my difficulty breathing, I was put on an antibiotic to get the “yuck” out.

Monday, January 16 (Hospital Day 2)
I was diagnosed with early stages of pre-eclampsia and given the induction date of Tuesday, January 24. I was released from the hospital and put on bed rest for the week.

Tuesday, January 17 (Hospital Day 3)
I went back to the hospital this morning after some blood gushing. My doctor decided the baby wanted to come and broke my water a little after 1 p.m. Within 10 minutes my contractions were already 3-4 minutes apart.

The biggest issue was my breathing and coughing. I lasted 90 minutes (4 cm dilated) without an epidural. Sadly, I had some epidural drama. The first one did not go in well at all. I could still feel everything on my right side. The anesthesiologist clearly knew something was wrong, because he hung around for about 45 minutes. He fidgeted with the needle after that, and it didn’t get better, so he had to redo the entire process. The second epidural stayed in my system for about 90 minutes, but after that the pain returned and didn’t go away – even with several redoses.

I started pushing around 9 p.m., so about 8 hours later. Instead of taking breaks between pushing though, I was coughing and spitting up mucus and trying to catch any breath that I had left in me. I just knew that something was not right. After about an hour my doctor was paged. Before she arrived though, another RN came in to help. At this point, I was begging for a c-section and the new RN kept telling me to keep on going – how it’d be better for me and the baby. The new RN tried to put an oxygen mask on me, which I’m too claustrophoebic for and started freaking out even more, which made my breathing even worse. During the pushes at this point, they would lower the bed for the push positioning, which made the coughing even worse and my pushes got weaker and weaker. Then they'd raise the bed so I could cough and attempt to get any air I could.

Thirty minutes later, I had so little air that I was seeing spots and close to passing out. When my doctor walked in, she offered me a c-section in less than a minute.

Everything else that night is a blur. I had epidural #3, but I was so exhausted, I fell asleep on one of the doctors holding me up. I didn’t even realize I had been strapped down. I don’t remember Brent coming into the room or even really hearing Audrey cry. When Brent was holding Audrey, I took one look at her, smiled and passed out. Audrey was born at 11:38 p.m.

Wednesday, January 18 (Hospital Day 4)
While in the c-section recovery room, I got to hold Audrey and attempt to breastfeed her in between coughing fits and a chest x-ray. Brent and I were busy loving on her, and the grandparents stopped in to see their first grandchild. I was on oxygen and getting blood drawn while Audrey and I were having some skin-to-skin time.

The RN was having some difficulty with drawing my blood (didn’t really have a lot of desirable veins left), so I started paying attention to the abuse of my hand. Then Audrey made this alarming noise, I looked over at her and see her turning purple. The RN grabbed Audrey and ran out of the room with her.

I’m not sure how much time passed. Probably only 5 minutes, but it felt like a lifetime. The RN returned and told us everything was now fine. Audrey did stop breathing, but her heart was still going. She was now admitted into NICU.

When Brent and I woke up that morning, we got wonderful reports on Audrey. So, the new focus was on getting me better. I was still on oxygen and having breathing treatments.

That night, I finally got to see Audrey.

Saturday, January 21 (Hospital Day 7)
I was released from the hospital that night. Audrey developed a little jaundice though, so we boarded at the hospital since she was being released the following day.

That night I got worse. The coughing and breathing difficulty increased again…as did the tears. At this point, I played it up to hormones and just being hospital stir crazy. It hurt to be at any form of an inclined positioned because I couldn’t get air – so therefore I couldn't sleep.

Sunday, January 22 (Hospital Day 8)
We were discharged from the hospital on Sunday. Audrey still had some jaundice, but it was improving – so home health services provided us with the necessary equipment.

That morning I cried a lot. I just assumed it was hormones and possibly some post-pardum warning signs, so I didn’t read much into it. I still couldn’t get enough air, but I thought that going home would solve that issue.

I went downhill rather quickly once we got home. Less than 4 hours later, I was back in the ER. Basically, the trip to the ER was to determine if something was actually wrong or if it was panic-attack related.

After chest x-rays, an EKG and cat-scan – they discovered a had an extreme amount of fluid in my lungs and I was admitted into the hospital to start flushing out my system.

Monday, January 24 (Hospital Day 9)
Audrey update: Audrey no longer has jaundice!

I had an ECHO in the morning to determine the cause of the liquid.

I was diagnosed with Post-Pardum Cardio Myopathy. In a nut shell this means, pregnancy weakened my heart and it’s become enlarged and can’t function correctly.

While it’s looking like I’ll make a decent to full recovery, things will no longer be the same. This is a condition I will always have, which means I’ll always be at risk for congestive heart failure. I’ll most likely be on heart medication the rest of my life, and on a low-sodium diet to prevent future liquid build up.

Another heartbreaking change is that I won’t ever be pregnant again. Since pregnancy caused this issue, getting pregnant again will make my condition worse and likely lead to a form of heart balloon or other heart surgery. Definitely not worth the risk, but a lot of tears were shed.

Tuesday, January 24 (Hospital Day 10)
Not a whole lot has changed. I responded well to the medicines I’ve been on (I’ve already lost 3 liters of liquid…yes, 3 liters). Since I’ve responded well, I didn’t need to heart cath or additional ECHO done, which was a big relief.

I’m done with my nitro drip, but back on the oxygen. And I just started taking a new heart medication to see how that goes.

When I do get to go home, I’ll be on a “life vest” for about a month. This will make sure all stays well with my heart and give me a shock if needed.

Wednesday, January 25 (Hospital Day 11)
I started a beta blocker today, and I seem to be doing well with it so far. I also met up with the nutritionist to start going over my new sodium-free lifestyle.

There's rumors I'll be released on Friday, but there's been no doctor confirmation on this so far.

So, that’s where I’m at right now. I’ll try to keep everyone updated.

As for Audrey, both my mom and mother-in-law are staying at the house with her. So she's been in great hands being spoiled.

Baby Audrey

Audrey Elizabeth was born January 17 at 11:38 pm. She weighed 7 lbs, 5 oz and is 20.75" long.

Audrey at one week:

As you can see, we're still in the hospital. Audrey is doing great, the health issues are mine. I'll post that journey in a separate post.

Monday, January 16, 2012

Just a quickie

I know I've been quiet, but I've been sick.

There's this gross cough going around where I work, and I caught it. Sadly, there's no good medicine I can actually take for a cough/chest congestion/runny nose, so I wound up in labor & delivery over the weekend and was just released tonight.

Basically, the cough/cough meds/not getting enough air elevated my blood pressure enough to be hospitalized.

The big news is that I'll be induced next week, if not earlier. Until then it's bedrest for me.

Monday, January 9, 2012

Please vote for me!

Hey guys! I know this is super last minute, but I'm up for Nursery of the Week on Project Nursery, and I've decided it'd be rather awesome to win.

So click here, and then click the Facebook "like" button at the top. Voting closes at noon (not sure in which time zone though).

Thanks so much!

And in case you're curious, here's the competition.

Monday, January 2, 2012

The nursery

My goal was to have Audrey's nursery complete by the end of the year. While it's still missing a few elements, I'm excited to say that if I go in labor today – she will come home to a room that looks done and is now finally clean.

I didn't do a mood board for this room. I'm not sure if this hurt or helped me in the long run. I tried to use Pinterest, but I was even way to indecisive for even that and didn't make it too far. I can't even count how many times I changed my mind on fabrics. Really, the only piece of the nursery I was positive on was my argyle wall – so I based all of my decisions off of that.

The other deciding factor was budget. Baby items are a lot like wedding items – tack the word baby in front of it and the price sky rockets. So, I had my one splurge item – the glider and ottoman set, and then actually repurposed a lot of items for this space.

The crib is actually from Wal-Mart. It wasn't our original first choice (we were actually wanting the Somnat crib in green from Ikea and even made the 7-hour journey to Minneapolis for it. Of course, this was during Ikea's massive crib recall, so that idea fell through). When I saw the Baby Mod crib at Wal-Mart though, I came up with a new plan. Keep the crib white, and paint the wood base at the bottom green. I like this look so much more, and I still have a crib with some green on it.

I actually received this star in 2005 as a graduation present from my parents. It's been in a lot of rooms, but I think it going in a nursery is rather perfect. It's from a fabulous decor store in Lawrence, KS, that sadly closed several years ago.

Audrey's first Picasso's:

The glider and ottoman set are from BuyBuy Baby and were the big splurge, coming in at $600. The houndstooth quilt pattern was $7.50, and I had that made (this girl does not sew). The pillow is something I got off Etsy for my family room several years ago. The lamp is from Target, and the table is from a Craigslist flip I did in 2010.

The dresser was a $40 purchase off of Craigslist that I repainted. The painting is a DIY project I did several weekends ago.

The Expedit shelf was another must for the nursery:

An art fair purchase from 5 years ago:

The closet:

Drawer organization:

I started the nursery at 15 weeks. And at 34 weeks and 6 days, I can happily say "done!"